quinn couldn't wait to get rid of me! sheesh! if i hadn't of asked for a kiss i woulnd't have even gotten that! no lookin' back for this kid, just head on into preschool...no crying (on his end)!!!!!
he was great! not a single tear. He went through 'the gate' (safety feature) and was greeted by his cousin -adian- who took him by the hand and began showing him around. (side note: i was watching this from the other side of 'the gate'....his cousin led him to a room off of the main room, where they aren't allowed to go unless the teachers go with, and showed him that room. so of course quinn wants to go in and check it out. aidan comes running over to the teacher, and tells her that quinn went in that room, and the teacher tells aidan to go get him out. aidan tells quinn (i can't see quinn at this point) and aidan runs back to tell the teacher that he wont come out. so the teacher has to go get him. he wasn't in trouble, but that little stinker aidan!!!)
so i watch for a minute longer, and they are playing with the other kids. no freak out, no worries...he is just having a great time.
so i feel useless, and un-needed (is that a word?) and head to my car to go i-don't-know-where while i cry my eyes out. My baby is in preschool!!! being taken care of by someone else! and he didn't bat an eyelash! (which i know is great, but c'mon...a little sad to see me go????)
i call alyson...crying and talking to her as i drive to joanns to look at fabric for new curtains (which i didn't get b/c i was in a daze)...she helped me feel better...she has a fabulous way with words that i will never posess...so i stopped crying, but it felt so weird to not have him there...it was so quite...
i snuck in to pick him up and saw him eating his snacks at the little table with the little chairs, just like all the other kids. aidan spotted me, but i preformed the universal signal for 'shhhh' and he smiled and nodded his head. i watched little quinners be such a big boy, drinking from a big boy cup, sitting there so politely. he finshed his snack and skipped away, i just continued to watch.
another mom came and the teacher said...so-and-so you mom is here...quinn turned around and looked towards 'the gate' and saw me. he squealed with delight..."mommy!" and ran towards me.....i melted inside!!!! ah! he DOES love me!
the teacher gave us the EpiPen back along with his craft for the day, yup, my little guy made his first craft and i got weepy all over again.
he told me about his day in the car, and when he was done i asked if he liked it there and if he wanted to go back. yup. ok buddy, you got it.
so we came home and had lunch...i have never seen him eat a cashew butter and jelly sandwhich so fast, watched a bit of a movie and went to take a nap....and i took one too. i was emotionally spent. phew.
i woke up to the sound of rain...ahhhhhh....and he is still sleeping and that's that.
off to preschool....man i look sharp!
empty...
log cabin & covered wagon
future engineer...
3 comments:
I'm in tears reading about his (your)day too! It goes by so quickly. Thank you for sharing your heart. Knowing you it's obvious why Quinn is so confident going off to preschool like such a big boy! Hang in there Mommy...lots more tug-at-your- heart moments to follow.
Wow. Me too. The tears started flowing at the picture of the empty carseat. I do not envy you, my friend. But I AM so incredibly proud of you AND of Quinners! You are both sooo brave. You done good, Mommy! You done good!
Oh my- What a big day for the both of you!!! I'm so proud you made it through...you give the rest of us hope that we'll be able to do it too. Good job Mom! :)
I'm super excited to chat with Mr. Quinn about his adventures at school!
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